Five years on

Friday marked 5 yers since the end of the moscow theatre siege. The memorial service attracted a good enough number of people but not enough for my comfort. And my comfort is in knowing people care. Many politicians and presidential candidates showed up and a lot of media. Mothers of Beslan were there as well as victims of other terrorist attacks, including 9/11. I gave a short speech as did 3 of the Nord Ost families and Beslan mothers. At the reception later i ended up discussing politics with the oposition leaders. Kasparov sat there with his hands on his face being very dramatic. Much was said, and felt, especially as i spoke to Beslan mothers and i will write all of that up...but later. It's hard, very hard.

Anna

I feel a bit concerned that i'm writing things Anna might have said or done, and she is not around to correct me. She can't tell me if i got it wrong or even if she feels i have no right to do this. Every so often i have to stop to fight this feeling.

Today is one year since Anna was killed. RIP dear Anya. And thank you.